#Depression-Its Ok#

Thank you. Sometimes I need a reminder like this….
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#Depression-It’s Ok#


Poet Nayyirah Waheed


I’ve always wanted to get into poetry, and just for that I have found it to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever undertaken. I’ve read a variety of poets but somehow I never felt a connection.

You know that feeling of sudden awareness when a word or phrase reflects perfectly your immediate state of being? And your eyes widen and your heart contracts almost painfully with the knowledge that someone out there gets you? That connection. I’ve had it with many authors but, scarcely, with poets. Until now.

Nayyirah Waheed gets me. Or I get her. Or it’s a mutual ‘I-get-you’, I don’t know. But when I first read this verse, my heart skipped a beat in recognition. I felt relief. I am not a freak, I am not crazy, I am not scary. I’m just sick-and that is ok.

I write a lot about Depression and Mental Illness and i worry sometimes that I am dragging my readers down. My blog is about expressing things I love, and I try to keep it upbeat and fun and positive and whimsical; but I also want to keep it authentic and true, and for me Mental Illness is real. I suffer from Chronic Depression and Esteem issues which have directed me to make bad choices for myself and have created the rut i find myself stuck in now. And so I write about it, with the hopes that people will find comfort, relief and inspiration to avoid my mistakes and be comfortable seeking help for themselves.

Sometimes I browse online for information and I only find the how-to’s and success stories of Depression, rarely the struggle-in-the-trenches ones, which makes me feel even more distant from achieving that success myself. So I figured If I share my own stories-the really dark, deep, painful, tearful, debilitating emotions I feel with each episode, maybe another patient out there will relate and feel less alone, less afraid and just…relieved. Relieved that someone else out there understands. Relieved that he/she doesn’t have to suffer alone in silence And relieved that one can talk about it openly and seek help.

I made my first appointment with a psychiatrist for August and I am nervous. How much should I reveal? What will she say? What if I just cry through the whole thing? What if I have to take medication? Nervous much? Yeah, I’m nervous. But I’m tired of trying to handle this alone. I need help. I am very relieved to just say that-I need help.

And as Nayyirah Waheed says, “It is okay to hold your hearts outside of your body…”. That’s how you Heal.

And so, I’m going to continue with that first step, my heart on my sleeve, and start to heal too.


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#Let’s Help#- The Earthquake Tragedy in Nepal 2015


4000+. That’s the current number of deaths from the 7.9 scale earthquake that tragically hit Nepal this past week.

I was watching the news and reading articles about the situation in Nepal, but I’m still in shock and disbelief. The mass destruction of Kathmandu, the thousands killed instantly, those still buried alive under the rubble and the millions turned homeless over night. I cannot even imagine what it’s like to be in their shoes- to lose one’s entire life, family, friends, homes, livelihood, everything, in the span of hours. It’s absolutely heartbreaking.

While listening to the news, I was having a hard time identifying with this tragedy and then I saw this photograph. This photograph above really brought this tragedy home to me. Two men were found underneath the rubble after an 18 hour search-one thankfully alive and conscious, but his friend killed instantly and lying beside him dead. That photograph made my heart constrict and left me breathless. Just imagine, one minute you’re talking with your friend, hanging out like any other day, and the next minute, he’s lying dead beside you and you’re fighting to stay alive beneath a thousand pounds of rock and rubble, praying that you will be rescued. That’s absolutely terrifying-and sadly, it’s a reality for thousands in Nepal.

While I am only beginning to understand the magnitude of this tragedy, I am so heartened and proud by the world’s response to help Nepal. Countries all over the world are sending money, supplies, planes, volunteers, medicine, doctors, engineers-anything, everything and everyone willing to offer assistance wherever needed. Seeing all this cooperation really motivates me to do my part as well. We need to help, there is just no other way around it, we need to step up and offer assistance, supplies, food, aid, prayer, compassion, anything and everything to help out.

I’m ready to do what I can, how about you?

Below is a list of charities that are actively collecting and giving out donations and supplies on the ground to the people of Nepal. If you would like to help out, feel free to call up your local or national branch of these organizations-every little bit, no matter how big or small, will make a world of difference. I guarantee it.

-Red Cross

– OxFam

-Save the Children


-Plan Canada

– CARE Canada

– Care.org

Thank you for your love, generousity and support.

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* NOTE: Some of the photographs below are quite graphic, but I wanted to share them because this is Nepal’s reality and it’s the only way we can understand and feel for them. And in this way, we can help.*




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